The Chocolate obsession

Its come to my attention that there is a big obsession with the baby having chocolate(or the lack of). This obsession comes in the form of family members,surprise surprise!

So I just want to ask, "what is the big obsession with giving baby's chocolate??"

We all have the choice of what to feed ourselves & our children. I'm choosing to try & give Freddy a healthy start in life.

I was VERY fussy as a child & at one point from the age of about 15 months lived on just marmite sandwiches & the occasional piece of cheese for many months! I don't want Freddy to be the same, you may find this hard to believe but its taken me 42 years to try raisins & blueberries! And don't even get me started on tomatoes & beetroot!!

Let me tell you the tomato story. So I was about 5 or 6 & I remember sitting in the lounge on the floor with a plate on a stool in front of me. On the plate was a tomato. One lone tomato & me & my mum. This is how the conversation went:

Mum "come on try it"

Me "but I don't like it"

Mum "how do you know you don't like it"

Me "I just don't like it"

Mum "you've never tried it,now try it"

Me (crying by now)"but I don't want to"

This resulted in my mum telling me that I had to sit there until I tried it.

Well I sat there for what felt like a week ( it was probably only half an hour but when your a kid half an hour is SO long!)
In the end my mum gave in (think I had stressed her out at this point!) & I was excused from the tomato! And to this day I have never tried a fresh tomato! I can eat chopped ones in a pasta sauce but that took about 28 years!

As for beetroot & mayonnaise I have never even tried them as the smell alone makes me gag!!
And I DO NOT want Freddy to follow in my footsteps, though I'm yet to give him beetroot or mayonnaise, I think Mr K may have to give him those as I fear will gag! Thankfully he does like tomatoes,phew!

So here I am trying to raise Freddy on a varied,balanced healthy diet & all I get is "when are you going to give him some chocolate??Bet he would love some, your depriving him" my answer is always the same, he has never had it so far,so therefore doesn't know what he's missing. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that Freddy will never have chocolate, I would just like to get him established on healthier foods first.

I do not condone anyone that wishes to give their baby chocolate from a young age,its your choice, so do not condone me for not giving my baby chocolate.

Love
Mrs K x

The buns out the oven!!!

Its been a VERY long time since my last post,6 months in fact! I cant believe its gone by so quick! I just had a read through my previous post(& had a little weep) & it still fells like yesterday,I remember the 6th January so well! its weird to think that 2.5 hrs after writing that post i had my first contraction. my only regret is that i haven't done more posts to document all the ups & downs we've been through as we became a family of 3(+ 3 dogs,5 chickens & 2 ferrets!) My main reason of starting this blog was so that at some point id be able to save it all for Freddy to read when he got older, but there never seemed enough time in the day, so I'll have to try & catch up over the next weeks(months!)

So yes, after that post Dave & i were having dinner & i felt a strange sensation in my tummy,it wasn't even a pain, but i just knew that this was it & it was all going to start, and i think it slapped me in the face then that junior was on his way out!


So i did the only thing i remember to do that id been told about,"relax & don't panic", which is strange because while i was pregnant i thought the minute i went into labour it would be all over for me,that id have a complete meltdown,crying "no Dave i cant do this,i don't want him to come out now!" but i surprised myself, i stopped eating and turned to Dave & said very calmly,"Dave i think I'm going into labour", He replied "i know!"


at that point i went & had a bath as i figured it would be a long night & i wanted to pass some time & just be with my big fat belly one last time in the bath,I wanted to have our last bath together(although it turned out that wasn't to be!)


I remember tweeting in the bath,though I didn't tell anyone that I had gone into labour just in case it was a false alarm.

Anyway fast forward a few hrs & about 9pm i had a,how do i put it politely,a major clear out if you know wot I mean! that's when I knew it was all systems go!


So I spent from 9-10pm timing contractions,which were from 3.5-4 mins apart,so phoned the maternity unit & midwife said to call again when contractions were over a minute long & not so long apart. I sent Dave to bed as all he wanted to do was film me in labour,which I was not very happy about! I was quite surprised at how quick my contractions progressed as by 1am they were over a minute long & very frequent,so i went to get Dave up so we could go,went to the loo & that's when I lost the plot, Istarted to bleed really heavily,panicked & screamed to Dave "oh my god I'm bleeding,phone the hospital!!" I thought the placenta was coming away and I was going to lose junior. So Dave was tell the midwife all this & she was like "oh its only a show, is it just a bit of pink mucus?tell her to put a pad in & call us later" I was screaming at Dave"ITS NOT A BLOODY SHOW,THERES LOADS OF BLOOD & MY CONTRACTIONS ARE A MINUTE AND HALF APART!" and she still said," yeah phone us later" with that Dave shouted at her and said we were coming in NOW! And when we went outside it was like a scene from a Sherlock Holmes episode,thick fog and we couldn't see more that 10ft in front of the car,and its a 30 min drive to the hospital on a good day & I just remember thinking,oh my god I'm going to give birth in the car!


We finally got to the hospital bout 2.30am only to be met by horrible midwife on the phone,midwife Doreen! First thing she said,"right lets have a look at all this blood then",nothing there!"see" she says"nothing there!""do me a sample in that put it on the bin" & left the room. When i went to the loo, cue loads of blood,I said to Dave "I'm not moving till she comes back & shes seen all this blood" so Dave took the sample whilst we wait for the ray of Sunshine's return!


When she eventually came back i showed her & she said,"like i said its only a show" to which i replied"well if id been told wot a show was really like instead of being told its just a bit of pink mucus then id know that wouldn't I!" then she asked for the wee sample which unbeknown to me Dave had put in the bin! Cue angry midwife now!"I didn't tell you to put it IN the bin, i said On the bin!" Dave felt like a naughty school boy then. "right,we'll put the monitor on you & see wots going on" Doreen barks,"shall i bring her bags in?" Dave's asks meekly"NO we don't know if your staying yet", so on goes the monitor & she leaves. "bloody hell Dave,i hope I don't have her all the way through,how the hell did she become a midwife?" "dunno" says Dave "but she bloody scares me". so we wait in silence,apart from the odd quiet moan from me(I'm frightened Doreen will tell me off if I make to much noise)& then she returns about 3.30am and states "oh your are in labour!" no shit Sherlock I say in my head! "right lets examine you & see how many centimeters you are". this is the part i like cos while she examines me my waters brake all over her,I'm silently laughing to myself, and she goes to leave........"erm....how many centimeters am i then?" i need to know this so I no roughly how long me & Doreen are going to be stuck with one another,"oh" she says "7 centimeters,well done for getting that far on your own"& just like that she changed it not nice Doreen! Thankfully half an hour later at 4am Doreen finishes and i get the most fantastic midwife EVER! the lovely Scottish Lorraine(no not kelly!) at this point i beg for some pain relief as Ive not had a thing,not even a whiff of gas & air! she looks at my notes & sees that I'm allergic to morphine "hhmmm...I'll have to check with the doctor wot you can have,but try the gas & air for now", Jesus,Ive never had such a quick head rush as i did from that first intake of gas, it was like Friday nights all over again from years gone by,i felt drunk!


Any way the lovely Lorraine comes back & explains that no i cant have anything, due to the lack of emergency doctors on,if they gave me an epidural or pethidine(both of which are morphine based)& something went wrong there wouldn't be anyone to attend to me,so basically it was gas & air & nothing else...............SHIT!! my worst nightmare came true,pain pain & more pain & nothing to do to dull it! Then Lorraine mentions the birthing pool is empty & would i like to go in there! YES YES YES!! this was the one thing i hoped for in labour all through my pregnancy,but was told your very lucky if you can get in there as theres only one pool.


so we all decamp to the pool & Ive got to say it was FAB!


one thing i should mention at this point is that Christmas eve i watched my one & only episode of One Born Every minute on C4, & one of the ladies(who was in labour) said to her husband "oh my god i think the baby's coming to come out my bum" at which i was in hysterics saying "silly cow,coming out of her bum, ha ha ha!" and it was only when i got in the pool i turned to Dave & Lorraine & said "oh my god I'm either going to have a poo or the babies coming out my bum!" i take back all my laughing Mrs OBEM!


Lorraine reassured me that neither of these actions were going to happen,thank god! So at about 6am i was ready to push junior into the world,only my contractions stopped! so we waited & we waited...............6 minutes in fact in between contractions! & every time i felt him progress down 5 mils it felt like he went back 20 mils!


it then got to about 7.15am and i heard Lorraine say to the assisting midwife that if he didn't come out by 7.30 then they have to get me out & pull him out! so i had to summons all my energy to get him out,no way was i getting outta that pool now,so with every contraction Dave,Lorraine & Sharon(assisiting mw)pushed me on to push that little bitter harder & little bit longer, even when i whimper "i cant push any harder"(can i say at this point how proud i was of myself as i didnt scream out in pain,although all my family never believed this till we made them watch the video!LOL! i just did wot Lorraine told me & she told me not to waste energy on screaming) & then with every breath i had in my body i pushed junior out! i cannot begin to tell you how amazing & surreal it was to see his head underwater looking around! we stayed like that for awhile waiting for the next contraction,half in the oven half out! then "whoosh" he was out & caught by the lovely Lorraine!

Welcome to the world Freddy James Junior at 7.45am!

she placed him on my chest & he cried & i said those words I've waited to say for so many years "its alright,mummys here" & cried happy tears.

After that i was just in a daze, I'd waited so long to meet this little fella & now here he was, just perfect.

Id rather not say to much about the stitching up,found it all a bit traumatic after the midwife had ago then had to get the head doctor to have a few goes,i passed out with the pain.

So here he was,my very own bun which i had cooked to a plump 7lb 5oz, perfect in every way!!


Love Mrs K xxx

PING!!!!! Cooking times up!

So here I am, made the big "40" for the second time in my life!! & boy has it been a roller coaster ride!Today has been a very emotional day for me, there have been alot of tears & various other emotions as I "looked" back over my whole IVF experience! I remember when I first found out I was pregnant, laying in bed each night praying that nothing would go wrong & every week saying "please let me get through the next 36 weeks" & wham bam here I am, the big 40 week mark, & it feels like only yesterday that I found out.
But now he really needs to come out!!!
Im not ashamed to admit that I have found the last 3-4 weeks very hard, but Im hoping & praying that it will all be over sooner rather than later,I really don't think I can go another 2 weeks, my body has had enough, Im struggling with the simplest of everyday tasks, even going upstairs is such an effort, I cant sleep because of the pains in my hips, & when I do fall asleep I wake myself up either choking or snoring(another thing they dont tell you you develop!!)then Im frightened to go to sleep in case I choke, its a vicious circle!
But Im hoping these things will disappear soon after the birth.
So all I can do is sit & wait................& wait!
So lets have a quick catch up from 12-40 weeks(dont worry it will be quick because thankfully nothing major happened,I've been extremely lucky!)
When I was 13 weeks I went to meet up with some of the lovely ladies that I've meet on twitter, the lovely ivfchronicles aka Sarah,ivfdiary aka Fi & phillygordan aka Phillipa( if you dont follow these ladies,then do,they are amazing) we had a great weekend in oxford & it was really nice to meet these ladies in person as I had become good friends with them & lots of other ladies on twitter. Since then I have also meet up with vhl girl,fbish wife @ meezze10(more lovelies).
Since then my pregnancy has progressed well, I had a private gender scan at 17 weeks(Im so impatient I couldn't wait till I was 20 weeks to find out!) & found out I was having a little boy, which he has loving been know as junior.
During this time Mr K & ! got busy decorating the nursery which I have LOVED doing, it is my pride & joy!
Probably the only "excitement" Ive had is at 32 weeks when junior decided to do a flip (which was not a nice experience as it caused me to bleed & have a major panic!!)& sit in the breech position for a week! But again the lovely ladies of twitter came to my rescue with lots of ways to help turn him back,which must of worked because he did!
So here we are now, junior continues to grow bigger & bigger with every passing second I think! Every day I have stresses & panics over the labour & birth, It wasnt till last week that it finally hit me that this baby had to come out somehow & I had a bit of a meltdown!
Sometimes I wake in the night & think its all been a dream as I cant feel him moving around,then I put my hand on my big swollen tummy & thank god it wasnt, he is really in there!
So please come out soon junior,mummy & daddy cant wait to meet you,you are going to be so loved & I promise to love you,protect you,& nurture you with all my heart my precious little miracle!!

Love Mrs K

Place cupcake in the oven & bake at womb temperature for 40 weeks!

BAKING WEEKS 4-11

5 week Tummy

So here I am on the eve of my twelfth week & Ive gotta say I'm starting to get excited! I'm not ashamed to say that Ive found it hard these last seven weeks, Ive gone through every emotion possible I think, but know I just wanna shout "I MADE IT YIPPEE!!!!" & I'm so glad I did!

So after I got my BFP I worried constantly about the 1st scan, would every thing be OK? would I get there & find I was having a phantom pregnancy, that my body had played a cruel trick on me? I worried about every eventuality possible. On the morning of the scan I sat in my bedroom & cried, I was having a little chat with my uncle Brian ,my nan & grandads( who have all sadly passed away) & I just couldn't stop crying, I was praying that everything would be OK with my cupcake(s)-didn't know how many had implanted at this point-& I just couldn't pull myself together. Its normally an hours drive to my clinic so we left in plenty on time, only to arrive 40 minutes early! these were the longest 40 minutes of my life! there was quite a few other ladies there all for the same reason as Thursday is scan day, & while they all sat there beaming away I was silently sobbing in the corner. the lovely receptionist tried to get me in earlier, but she couldn't, so all I could do is sit & sob. When the nurse finally called my name (I think the other ladies were glad to see the back of me at this point) she asked if I was OK & that was it! I was blubbing all over the place saying I'm so worried theres going to be something wrong, bless her she was so lovely she just said I'm sure everything will be fine not lets get you ready & we'll find out & put you out of your misery.

Nothing in the world can describe the overwhelming joy I felt when I saw my one little cupcake flickering away on the screen, (I did have 2 embryos put in) this time I cried tears of joy & so did Mr K. I felt so relieved,happy,proud & thank full that I had finally been granted my chance.

We both came away on cloud nine, I didn't go back to work as I was so excited that I wanted to tell my family as I had managed to keep it a secret from them this time & to say they were over the moon is an understatement! My cousins cried, we were all sat round the table chatting away & Mandy said " so why aren't you at work then jack?" & I was all coy saying "oh I had to go to the doctors this morning.........cos I'm pregnant",then that was it, lots of tears & "oh my god your joking!!"

Next was my Dad & step mum, my dad is a man of very few emotions, he tends to hide it all away, so to see him shed tears when I told him meant so much to me!

Anyway lets fast forward over the next few weeks. I thought I would stop worrying after the scan, but oh no it continued! In fact it wasn't till I was reading a blog by Kate(bustedplumbing) who said she has something taped to her computer saying(can't remember all the words) stop worrying about all the things that could go wrong & start enjoying all the good things that are happening( something like that) that I began to think Ive really gotta stop all this worrying,

I will probably never experience pregnancy again so Ive really gotta start to think more positive about it, which was easier said then done when at 9-10 weeks I felt like all my little symptoms that I did have disappeared! It was like overnight I had gone from being pregnant to not! It was not an easy time,but thanks to the lovely ladies of twitter they put my mind at rest.

I have been lucky or unlucky however you wanna look at it, to have not really had any symptoms, all I have had is the occasional feeling sick & retching ,1 nose bleed, backache & headaches ( at the times when I didn't feel pregnant I actually prayed for some sickness, I know this will not make sense to the ladies that have suffered badly with it, but I felt like I needed a bit of reassurance that my cupcake was still doing well).

My tummy has grown so quick I cant believe it! I asked the midwife I was big for 10 weeks & she said if it hadn't been confirmed that I was having one baby she would of said it could possibly be twins,unless one was hiding she said at the scan! or that my uterus had just popped out quicker than normal & the baby will grown into it know & I may not grow anymore for a while, but from weeks 8-11 its grown 2.5 inches,in one week alone it grew 1.5 inches! so I cant wait to see how much its grown tomorrow when I do my weekly photo & measuring!

So on the eve of my twelfth week I have a lovely little tummy which is developing a little downy fur over it & a gorgeous pregnancy cleavage in the making ( no gel bras required now!).

I have my next scan on the 1st July when I'll be 13 weeks 2 days & I have been told that I should get a really good picture, fingers crossed!

I'm so proud that I made it to the first hurdle, here's to the next one!!!!

Keep baking

Love Mrs K xxx

Baking in Progress!!

Sorry its taken so long for me to update my blog, I will try not to ramble on to much, but apologies if I do!
So on Tuesday 27th April I found out that my IVF treatment had work, I WAS PREGNANT!!! To say I was shocked (well both of us really) was an understatement! Compared to my last IVF cycle (which was horrendous!), this one was a breeze! But I was convinced it hadn't worked as 4 days after my transfer I had really bad pains in my tummy,not like period pains,they were very strange,but they started at midday & went right the way through till 10pm that night, then nothing, deep down I had prepared myself for the worst. The day before my test was the worst as last time I started bleeding the day before my test, so I was constantly in the loo "checking", Dave was ill due to worrying as well & by the end of the day when my AF hadn't reared its ugly head I began to have a very small amount of hope that I mite be pregnant.

I didn't sleep at all well that night, I knew I had to hold my wee wees for a minimum of 6 hrs!(forgot to say that on the Saturday night I had started peeing mega amounts during the night) so knew this was going to be hell! Told myself I had to wake up at 1am for my last "wee stop" of the night,then no more, easier said than done, 4am I was busting to go again & had to hold it, not a good move! Any way to pass the time I pictured myself phoning my mum in the morning to tell her it hadn't worked again, I tried to picture this over & over again to try & prepare myself, but for some reason the picture that kept reappearing was one of me telling her I was pregnant.

At 6am I couldn't hold it anymore, told Dave to quickly let the dogs out for a wee & I would wait for him before I did the test, last time I peed on the stick & Dave watched for the result, this time I wanted to witness the change for myself.So when he came back I rushed into the bathroom to do it, & he said oh my god I need the loo! thankfully we have another loo upstairs, & as I was mid pee there was no way I was stopping, not after I'd been holding it for 5 hours!

So I peed & waited on my own. Last time I had a digital pregnancy test that either said "pregnant" or "not pregnant", I hate these tests as its almost like its taunting you if your not pregnant, so I couldn't bear to use one of these tests ever again! This time I had the good old 2 lines for positive, 1 line for negative ( no taunting involved!)Watching that stick change was amazing, I knew as soon as the first line came up that it had worked, cos if its negative the line only comes up on the right hand side, & this line came up on the left side first, then the right, I just sat there in shock ( all this time Dave is still on the loo oblivious to it all). After a minute or two I just said in a very flat voice "Dave I've done it", he rushed out the bathroom going "well,what is it?"I handed him the stick & said"I cant believe it, I cant believe it,oh my god I cant believe it, its worked" I was shaking & he hugged me said "oh my god Jack, I bloody knew it had!", my reply "I've gotta lie down".I was in complete shock, but I knew I had to call my mum as she would be waiting for news, & I couldn't wait to tell her she was going to be a nanny! When I called she said she had been awake since 5am worrying as well, but when I told her she was going to be a nanny she started to cry, I don't think she could believe it either, then I had to phone daves mum & two sisters as I knew they would also be waiting for news, & they all cried as well! Ive got to say I think it was the most emotional day of my life! I phoned my clinic & left a message for them to call me back,& when my fav nurse called she was like, good news,bad news??? I screamed "bloody excellent news!!"she was so happy for me as she had seen me at my lowest last year after the failed attempt & she is brilliant at her job!

I wont waffle on for to much longer,spent the rest of the day in a daze really(& 6weeks later im still in a daze!)

Its strange though,cos no matter how hard I thought the IVF was,being pregnant is a million times harder, I have tried not to but I have worried constantly,worried about first scan,now worry about second scan & it goes on & on & on, but I'm trying my hardest not to worry(easier said than done) as I don't want to look back & say I worried the whole time, but I know that will never go away completely, so I'm trying to focus on all the good things,this precious, miracle life growing inside me ( which I still cant get used to!) & my wonderful husband & family who have been with me all the way!!

So now we've just gotta wait for the bun to bake!!

love Mrs K xx

Ferns Blog!!

This started as a joke between myself & jenny who I go doggie walking with-she has barneys litter brother,chip.

Picked up fern she is settling into Pooch Prison! no walkies till I don't know when xx

Dear Fern,
I am glad that you are home and with your mum. Thank your mum for the photo and I know that you are feeling uncomfortable, but I like your pink bandage. At least you have the prison door open so that you are not totally enclosed in your bedroom.My mum took me to the river but there were two men holding one large dog as big or bigger than that Rodney who lives with Spike and Layla - I did not like him and growled from behind my mums legs. Another dog a black and white spaniel would not go back to his daddy and was splashing around in the lagoon! I would not go down there cos of the water.Are you allowed out for a wee. Would you like flowers or bones. Have lots of lick and sniffs Love Chippy xx

Dear chip,

thank you for ur message,I'm glad to be home but I'm really not happy about this crate,I have to stay in all the time,I'm only allowed out 3 times a day for a kwick wee,which is difficult with this big alien on my leg!so I've decided to go on hunger strike!I've got to stay locked up at hotel pooch for 24hrs till the 1st of june,can u believe that,I think I'll go crazy,shame u can't visit,but aunty can whenever she likes,just remeber be brave when facing those hounds!!

Prisoner 4321 fern xx xxx

Dear Fern,

Wot rotten luck only three times a day. And a pot on your leg too. If you are on hunger strike I shall send my mummy down to see you. My big ones have invited a hoard of little ones to dinner on Sunday so I think roast beef is on the cards. Are you allowed a little roast beef whilst on Prisoner Cell Block H. What else do you think you could manage to taste - I might be able to bring chicken too. Your Mum is trying to think of all things she could tempt you with. I will tell her that best fillet steak lightly grilled would really be ideal - but not any dog food whilst you are ill - should I send chocolates.I shall take lots of photos whilst I am away of all the places I have wee'd on to show you

Luv Chippy xx

Uncle Alec sends love.

Dear chip

Mum just gave me jaspers kong which had puppy food & chicken in it so I forced that down,all these drugs are making me rather sleepy,rotten luck on having lots of little visitors tomorow,but more chance they'll slip u some beef,or drop lots of food on the floor! I also have a new room mate,its pink & soft & looks like some sort of goose & makes a strange noise,I think its name is baby!oh well mite snuggle up to it later,my eyelids are drooping now so I better go,will send u a pic of new roommate when she's settled in. & wood love to see pics,will make me think I've been outside!

Woofs & licksPrisoner 4321 fern & baby

Lunatics Asylum:

Dear Prisoner 4321

Well the small things have gone home and I am very tired. I did have some nice things to eat because someone dropped their chocolate cake towards the floor and I caught it before it fell on the ground. I also managed to snatch some roast beef whilst Mum was clearing the plates into the dishwasher. An opened packet of chocolate covered raisins were left on the coffee table but someone saw me before I could sample them.I have not got your picture of baby! I did not know you had to share a cell I thought you were in a private wing!Its good to know that you were let out on remand for a while so keep up the good work and lie doggo when no one is watching.Next time at 2.00am try for Barney to bark he is louder than Jasper. I woke up at nearly 6.00am and played music on the radiator but my mum shoved me outa the back door and when I came back in she buggered off to bed again!No balls sound sad - fancy having no balls to play with.My mum is at art Tuesday and Wednesday this week! She says to tell you mum to lay down and rest or else she will have to do the 'mother bit' whatever that means.Large bags have appeared in the bedroom but there is a box of smelly dog treat (unopened grr) So I am not sure what is happening.

Write soon luv chip xx

Pooch Prison

Dear chip,

I've been allowed to write again today as I've been a good doggie. As promised here is a pic of me & prisoner baby(although I don't know what her crime is yet,she's a bit quiet)Well, after refusing to eat last night I had a spot of luck,mum & dad remembered that the nasty vet man said I was allowed out of the cell as long as there was always someone present & I didn't move,so I done my most saddest eyes ever & guess what?yeah you got it, they let me out & I was able to lay in front of the fire & sleep,I made sure I didint move as I didn't wanna get locked up again!But when it got dark they locked me up & all buggered off!!so I made jasper start barking at 2 am!!ha ha serves them right I thought!!he he!todays been ok didn't eat breakfast as I thought I mite get let out again,but mum & dad went to some clinic to have some wanna be babies put in mums tummy,but when they came back mum let me out & we layed in the lounge together. Barneys a bit sad,he's stayed away from me at the moment,think he's scared he mite get locked up to,& I just heard dad call jasper a little shit,heard he got away from dad & ran in the end garden then onto the main road!dad was not happy & mum kept going on about "balls being chopped off" wotever that means! I did eat my dinner tonite as I've realised that you get rewards for good behaviour,so I'm expecting another lounge infront of the fire. barney has just heard that mum mite take him down the river tuesday or wednesday depending how she feels,she will let aunty know. How's your day been? Hope those little ones didn't stress u out to much,get any good leftovers?hope they haven't dressed you up in silly things again,its really not a good look for you to be sporting chip at your age!!any way better go now as I can hear the fire crackling

Scratches & sniffs Prisoner 4321 fern xx

Dear Prisoner 4321

Not much to report except that I only got a short walk today. My humans both went out. One took another human to a place called Haverhill and they even had dinner out, the long haired human went out with a small medium and larger human. They went to Sainsburys to change a jumper into a jumper!!If you savage baby and her wing falls off will she only be able to fly in circles. Remember that it was the goose that laid the golden egg so you had better be kind to baby and savage her when humans are not looking.Have you thought about joining a choir with your other two mates. A trio of singing might be really good and the noise would increase threefold.How is your mum - is she doing something called 'laying on the sofa' a funny sort of game which sometimes means humans make a funny grunting noise I think they call it snoring - my humans do it.Seeing grandmas are good they poke sweets at you through the bars.Treats have been hidden somewhere now - and I can't find them - bugger.My human is going to try and pop to see you bearing gifts - so keep your tail up

Smell you soon - chip x

Pooch prison

Mon 18-4-10

Dear chip

How r u? As u can see baby has been a bit annoying today,so this is the only way I can keep her quiet!Not much to report today,am very very bored!I get left at home AGAIN while the other 2 went for a walk,I hope there feeling guilty for leaving me behind!Dad went to work & mum decided to have a lie in,whatever that is,so I decided to start "singing" very loudly & thought I'm not going to stop till mum gets up,after about half an hour the "singing"worked but she didn't let me out!shame on her!then she buggered off to let some man stick needles in her body,don't know what that's all about,why would you stick needle in yourself? My nan visited me this afternoon,so I was allowed out for a cuddle,yippee! Have got the sad eye look down to a T now,it works so well when wanting a cuddle!Have u managed to get into them treats yet? Keep trying.Oh well my paws getting saw from all this typing,hope to hear from u soon(baby might loose a wing soon!)

Tummy rub & ear scratch Prisoner 4321 fern xx

The Great Escape!!

Dear chip

Great news I managed to escape today,was the most fun I've had since I've been locked up(apart from savaging baby),you shud of seen me,got the wind in my ears!!I was free!! Well,for about 5 minutes. Let me tell you what happened,nan took jasper up the field & mum had just finished giving me another cuddle(she gets in the cell!) & she was trying to get barney out for a wee so she only put the top bar across,so I waited till I knew they were gone & just kept pawing away & hey what do ya know!bingo it popped open!(God really did listen to my prayers last nite)so I checked the coast was clear & made a run for it,I was in luck cos the back door & the gate were open,so with the wind rushing through my ears I ran into the field where I could see mum & barns,but my escape was short lived,mum shouted a bit & was really worried about my leg,but hey I can't feel pain!so with a heavy heart I got locked up again & I've only been allowed out to go to that nasty place where the people done this to me,something about them checking this pink monstrosity on my leg,the vet man tried bribing me with a treat,but you never know what they lace them with,no way am I eating anything from there!& when we came home before mum could put the sling under my tummy to help me out I thought I'd have another bid for freedom & just done a mad leap outa the car & my leg clanked to the ground,mum really panicked again which then led to another mad cuddling session,but I think I'm alrite now.mum has been doing something called "taking it easy" & I think she's ok cos she's still smiling. Jasper rolled on a dead rabbit head up the field so he's been taken off to the shower block by dad,much to his disgust,he was really making a noise about it,that'll teach the young pup!ah well better go as the tablets are kicking in,still haven't worked out quite how there getting into me,they must be tricking me somehow!

A Droopy eyedPrisioner 4321 fern xx

Two delicious cupcakes in the oven!

So today is the day the baking begins!

As most of you know this morning was the day of my transfer. I had quite a good nites sleep until I woke up at 2.11am & thought it was morning & time to get up! Managed to get back to sleep & woke again at pessary o'clock(I wake between 5.30& 6 every morning & its so annoying!)so with that done I decided I wasn't getting up till 7.

Was very calm,although Mr K & I didn't really say much to each other,we both know when the other is feeling uneasy or worried,& there weren't any words to describe how we were feeling.

I had another mad rush round with my hoover(that's for you Kris!)done some more washing then went to get ready, & that's when I had my meltdown, I just burst into tears & couldn't stop crying. All I kept thinking was "I can't do this,I can't.I don't wanna go,I'm not ready", so with me crying & Mr K sitting on the loo as his nerves got the better of him, we we're a sorry pair! But I thought "come on Jack,you've come this far you can do this" & I thought "yeah I can".

Yes I'm petrified of the "POAS day" but I'm going to keep taking each day as it comes & nothing else.

So, after we'd both pulled ourselves together we set off. Me wearing my lovely orange pants!(if I could of dressed all in orange I would of done!!)

I was glad when we got to the clinic that all my favourites we're going to be looking after me, lovely nurse pearly queen, Dr Chuckles & the nice embryologist,Nicola.

You all know what the procedure is like so I won't go into any detail, oh forgot to say that I had 2 really nice blasto's & 2 not so good,so got the option off the 2 nice one's & 1 of the not so good, but opted for just the 2 good one's. Nicola said if the remaining 2 divide well over night they will freeze them for us.

Saw the two cupcakes on the screen, one had collapsed, but Nicola said this was normal, then into the oven they went(Mr K was happy as his favourite song,sitting on the dock of the bay was playing), & nurse pearly queen said "there we go straight into mum", I could of cried at that,she called me mum! & for the next 10 days I will be!!

They all wished me the best of luck,told me take it easy & don't break out into a sweat,not much chance of that happening I can tell you!

But I'm not very good at doing nothing,so I'm going to force myself to go & chill out on the sofa after I've read the paper in the garden & watched poor Mr K moving loads of blocks around!

I've also been told not to wear to tight a clothing round my waist so picture this, I have my jeggins pulled right up under my boobs & resemble a Mrs Cowell,lol.

And Mr K is going to take me out for lunch later, so I bid you all farewell for today & will update you on the baking,

Love a happy chef, Mrs K xx